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12 January 2011 @ 09:48 pm
MY FRUSTRATIONS IN LIFE PART 1  
It had been a tiresome week for me. I haven't been updating much because of the arki stuff I have been doing for the past days and they literally suck the life out of me. Truth is, I haven't had any decent sleep as of now and it's ultimately clawing at my chest at the moment.

But enough of that. I'm writing for the sake of other matters.

This question has been hanging around my head since last year; however, certain moments for today have awakened them again.

Is it wrong to assume that someone has romantic feelings of you just because they are too "cozy"?

Well, I, for one, have experienced that VERY SAME treatment with a guy from my high school days. I thought that he had something for me there and the way he closed into my personal bubble, I happened to consider the gesture pretty much intimate as it is.

Fuck all those assumptions.

He wasn't into me. PERIOD.

It was a good thing I didn't confess, though.

And now, two years later, I'm experiencing the same thing over and over again. Of course, it's a different guy but the situation is parallel to what happened to me before. It's extremely annoying and overly taxing.

I'm a person who's easily influenced by emotion. I won't be surprised that if some guy told me that he likes me, in just a few days, I would happen to like him back. I tend to oversee things and tend to make assumptions of my own, thus, making me look stupid in the end when my assumptions have gone awry.

And now, I'm afraid to risk this again.

I know that it's not the same guy but the way he just acted today (he hugged me and whispered "I missed you" in my ear) made me feel afraid yet hopeful at the same time. I know it's stupid to like someone immediately after saying just a few words of affection but I admit it, I have a crush on him.

It may be because his personal bubble is smaller than mine, that he acts more intimately with other people...

FUCK. I'M JUST JUSTIFYING MYSELF. @____@ This is stupid.

Okay. I'll stop this. I'll go back to my hellish architecture life.

A relationship won't save me from plates, anyway.
 
 
 
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matsukanishi09: sunshinematsukanishi09 on January 13th, 2011 12:56 pm (UTC)
Shit. HAHAHAHA.

And yes, I appreciate your blushing emoticon. HAHAHA. :))))
wallflowerx07wallflowerx07 on January 13th, 2011 10:00 am (UTC)
It's not bad to assume, absolutely when there's...enough evidence.

And that's evidence enough.

It's just a crush? *shot* Ugh, don't mind me. But what he did...was very intimate. But really, it's just a crush :) It's fine to have one or two or three at a time. *Shot* Okay, why do I suck at this. Please do not listen to me.

Maybe he's just a flirt too...well, many girls tend to have crushes on those flirts because they are flirts.

So...um, don't worry? It'll pass with all the plates your given and time...once you realize who he really is. But who knows, he might really like you? :) Not bad to assume, but maybe expecting something might be hard.

I'm here too anyway...sooo...*SHOT* I REALLY suck at this. WHY O WHY.
matsukanishi09: sunshinematsukanishi09 on January 13th, 2011 12:59 pm (UTC)
It's a crush. :)

I don't like him that seriously but yes, I agree that what he did was really intimate. @___@ And when his friend asked him if I was a friend or an acquaintance, he said that I was a personal friend (with an additional hand on my shoulder)//SHOT.

But yes, I don't plan on pursuing it. :) I won't lose anything, anyway. HAHAHAHA. :)))
Drinn SantosDrinn Santos on January 15th, 2011 11:09 am (UTC)
(I'm a creeper anyway so)

How cheesy. Hihihi. We're always here anyway~~ \:D/

And, and. :">
matsukanishi09: waltermatsukanishi09 on January 15th, 2011 12:23 pm (UTC)
How you managed to see this using Facebook is beyond me and my stalking skills, master stalker. HAHAHA. :))

And please don't mention this to other peacocks. HAHA. :)) Let them find out in their own ways. XD
Drinn SantosDrinn Santos on January 15th, 2011 12:43 pm (UTC)
I didn't need Facebook for this. >:) I'm too great to be confined in that.. mousehole.